Current mood:	stressed
Current music:	deafening silence

here i go again
i miss everyone... i miss the three of you!!! it feels like all three of you have left me alone in this shithole...i know debz is still in the same country but i still feel like we are so far away from each other. i know sweetie, we've bothe been busy and perhaps very busy still. but i just wish that we could call each other up decide on an unplanned coffee date and talk and laugh.

i miss laughing...i don't do that much anymore. even genuine smiles are rare with me these days. usually, i smile because it is what should be done but i never had a perfectly sincere and heartfelt smile since, well since debz and i last saw each other after the twins left.

i miss coffee...i don't drink coffee na..and softdrinks and iced tea and other stuff that are too much in sugar, caffeinated and/or carbonated. atleast not much because they are bad for me na.. why? well, results of my general check-up came up with anemic, underweight, acidic, bronchial asmathic and a heart that is under observation because it might as well be weak.. :( ang sad noh..and all this time i thought i was perfectly healthy and strong.

i miss hanging out doing nothing...i can'tdo that anymore. everything i do seems to be under a strictly followed sched. like right now, while typing this i am working on my draft for my paper and checking my mails for messages from orgs and blocks regarding schoolstuff.

i miss being spontaneous and always game...i don't do that anymore...my scheed won't allow me.

i miss not having a fixed schedule...

i miss life...

when do you think will it come back?